todayy was just another day of missing and thinking bout you. it has just become a everyday type of thing alrdy.. i can't let go. i really can't, i admit.. todayy went prawn fishing with pri school friends.. the place was full of couples.. all smiling and helping each other.. then one guy held his gf rod, supporting her and ended up catching a gigantic prawn. idk why, but i just cried.. maybe it made me think of when i was holding your wallet and bag when we were together last time.., when u needed help, i was there to support you.. you were glad i did.. but now, all changed. maybe thats the root.. the root, ME. i broked promises, lied to you and what i regret the most, breaking ur heart and left u in agony. its all my fault.. yankang said u still care bout me.. idk if u do.. but idw u to care bout me if it brings u hurt. if it does, just ignore me and hate me. i wouldn't mind that if it would not cuz u to feel hurt. i will sacrifice everything, for your sweet smile to be back..
had a chat with ms soon privately on friday.. she says she knew me as a bubbly and intelligent boy that made her proud.. but she also said that the old me was gone. she said i was distracted and troubled in class.. then she asked me this,"is the problem a bgr one?" idk what to say so ended up nodding my head.. she asked me how long has it been, i said 4-5months.. she said, "its a breakup isnt it? its time to let go sanjay!", i just nodded my head and teared.. then she asked the big one, "who...?" i nvr say anything.. so she ask, "sit near you? and if she is, will changing place make it better?" i say no, changing place wont make any difference, cuz i have too much feelings for her.. so she ask," let me guess, isit Ada?" *1st guess, correct le.. i nvr say anything also, but ms soon saw me blush and said, "its ada.." i just keep quiet.. then she say i may leave, and finally said, "its time to let go of her.."
haixx. why must i be screwed up? why? its my fault, from the beginning it was my fault, it was nvr ever urs.. but no matter wad, i cant let go.. i love you too much.. i really do. i will starve, i will wait for eternity, i will walk to the end of the earth, just to be with you ada. i will. i will do anything. :/

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