haven't been blogging for awhile .. parents cut off my internet for my phone cuz they sae that i'm not independent and trustable enough to be given the priviledge to have an iPhone wif unlimited internet access . screw it luh . haixx . alot of things have been happening between ''us'' in this period to .., and when i mean ''us'' , it is just for cutting the number of words , instead of saying you and me . yes , we are now very close friends , yes , we are mei and gor , yesyesyes , i'm happy that at least we can be like that . but in true life , i dun really see it . cuz i want to be with you . as a couple . friends ? we may be . but couple? 100% NOT . u told me yesterday your answer , and it was : 'i dun want to be in a relationship' followed by a 'so sorry' .. to me , that was the end of the world , the final destination , the dead end , the end of the road , death valley . i felt like dying right there . i cried my eyes out . but yet i said , it's ok . in other words , i'm just shielding my pain and sadness . i know that the smileys i put in my messages are just a piece of crap . it is so not true . today in class , maths to be exact , i couldn't take the pressure and cried in front of the people who knew what happened to me the day before , you , hein , vanessa , mingliang and willys . hein gave me a giant hug which made my tears dry a little . thanks anyway . u are an awesome brother . being oblivious of my feelings , i just put on the fakest smile i ever put on . i pretended to be happy playing with rachel and nick and hein . idk what was i doing . it is all just a blur now . what have i been doing these days ? idk . what i've done .. it is just so painful and regretful . it is all because of me . not you .
i love you , i love you , i love you , but i hate myself holding on to the love we shared. guess it is all over . and i am serious this time . i am going to forget you , forget the times we shared , forget my feelings for you . forget all the sweet things i said to you . forget that i still love you .

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Sanjay
13, qonna 14
Sinqapore
-it's my sonq. it's my life. this is my world.

hell yesh
:Eminem
:Linkin Park
:Biq Banq

hell no
:Justin Bieber
:Lil Wayne
:Marc Anthony



Beats Solo (HD)
iPhone 4
Somebody To Love

Ada
Rachel
Yankanq
Vanessa
Melvin



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