so.., today... erm... what word to describe it.. idk.. Suckish? Sad? Upsetting? Angry? u get the point.. why...? lets see..
Arrived at Rachel celebration very hyperly and left there crying...
i started emo-ing a little half way through cauz the scene of everybody getting together as a family reminded me of my ex one... and surprisingly, only evinson and vanessa noticed.. idk whether you did to... tell me next time kayys..? anyway, i started tearing a bit after that.. i sms'ed vanessa who was right in front of me as i dun wan any more people to know.. we talked it out then i was at least able to put on a kinda true smile again..

when the sky grew darker....
my 'mum' texted me... i couldn't bare read it... i ran into rachel's room and climbed up her bed to be alone... vanessa realised something was wrong and came looking for me... she saw me crying and called rachel, zhi guo and later darrvin to come and talk it out with me.. we shut the door while the npcc brothers cleaned the sofa they dirtied.. anyway, i told them everything.. from head to toe.. what has been happening to me these few days... after a hard and painful talk, i soon realised that i wasn't alone... that at least brought a smile..

this is when things get reallyyyy bad....
it was about 10.30 when i received a call from my 'mum',, she said..: better be home by 11.00 or u can just sleep outside... i cracked.. i burst into tears, ran out of the room, took my bag, preparing to run back home... then, for some reason.., i stopped.. i sat outside rachel's house and cried... vanessa and they all caught up with me... they cooled me down... and when i was cooled down a little.., another message.. this time it said : 'u can just sleep outside'.. i just wore my shoe and walked off... darrvin ended up following me as well.. i nvr got to say thanks to my dear friends at all... so.., to all u guys who were there yesterday, Thanks...

so.., this is how it happened.. i slept outside.. i am outside now.. i missed lunch.. i'm crying.. and i got no one to talk to.. ;(

tomorrow's valentine's day.. i hope i will be happy...
what did i do wrong....? do i really deserve this...? ;(

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